The New Normal, My New Normal

He doesn’t like me that way. He told me today and it made me feel bad. He felt badly telling me, he wasn’t sure if I wanted a romantic relationship rather than a friendship. So he emailed me and told me “hey, if this is what you are hoping for, ain’t going to happen.” My first rejection. I hate being single again, I want my husband back. He loved ME, ME, ME.

So my “crushed” wants us to be friends and he wants to hang out with the kids and me. So what do I do? What do I do? Maybe starting as friends might work into something, I did say yesterday I wasn’t sure if I wanted to wreck the friendship. So, did I mean that? I really value him as a friend and I know I will meet someone else, eventually. I probably was rushing things because I don’t want to be alone. I loved being married, I loved it. I think I’m rushing things, I need more time. I have to try the friend thing with him and maybe he’s right, it is best.

I hope this is all normal because it is my new normal.

Amie